Monday, January 28, 2013

Doxil #3

Happy almost February!:) My favorite month...mostly cuz it's my birthday and because my better half already gave me prezzies!!:) Anthropologie loves me, and I love them.  PLUS my sister in law found a replacement of the beautiful coat i had last year from Anthro and bestowed it upon me as a surprise:) PLUS massage certificates...She's the best!!! (dear leanne and jill, in case this makes you jealous...love you!!)
Anyway, it's Monday, Chemo day, and I'm home now, resting and going back to work tomorrow.  Doxil hasn't been bad, and talking to the NP this morning emphasized that for me; very few side effects, just some nausea and mouth/throat sores.  I got some special numbing medicine this morning in case i get them again.  I did the whole ice on my hands and feet routine and ate 4 edy's popsicles:) in hopes of keeping the chemo from pooling in those areas.  I'm not sure it helps, but I don't want to not do it and have the side effects get me!!
The NP said this morning that one of my markers went up this month, the other one went down. (Puzzled face?) So...definitely not conclusively treating my cancer.  But one more treatment today, see what the numbers look like and a PET scan late Feb to determine if i need to switch to a different chemo.  Really hoping this one is working, it's not so difficult as chemos go, and ideally each treatment works for a lot longer than 3 months...
I'm good, please send all positive thoughts and well wishes to Carolyn's sister this week, in hopes we can ease her journey with this horrible disease just a little.  Fucking cancer.  Also, I just reread Carole Radziwill's "What Remains"...awesome read, but don't be afraid to cry, good reminder that even tho i'm the one with cancer, Will is going through his own experience with all of this and I'm beyond blessed to have him with me.   MWUH!

Thursday, January 3, 2013

not so happy

Had my 2nd dose of Doxil on Monday, a shot of Neupogen on Tuesday....and a dose of kick my butt yesterday and today:(
I'm not nauseated, so i really am trying not to be a baby, i know it could be much worse, but my back is  not happy!! It feels like someone removed my spine from my body, cracked it like a whip or one of those pretty ribbons in gymnastics, then put it back in.  Every time i change from seated to standing (which is a lot!!!) or vice versa, it takes my breath away as it ripples around in there.   Goes away after maybe 15-20 seconds.  NOT. HAPPY.
I'm gonna make an appointment for a massage soon, and I have lots of fancy pain relief creams and whatnot to try from my chemo care package:) Plus Suzi and Curt gave me 2 more massage gift certificates - yeehaw:) I love being spoiled.  I don't love being in pain tho, and i guess i've gotten off easy up 'til now...it's funny because at my last dr appt, they asked, as they always do, how my pain level was, and i said it was great! I was actually starting to wonder if i should decrease my pain meds...oopsy, guess not! Thank goodness for pain meds. And loving husbands;)